the Rule of Effort and Pain
I try not to complain. So I'm not. I'm just laying it out as it went through my head this morning. I push my physical body to the limit of damage as a way to get things done - and it is not visible. Pain. I know I can't relate to what other people say pain is, until it gets to the 'loudspeaker' point with a broken bone or concussion or huge gash gushing blood. The everyday things, like a sprained wrist, or a headache, or a twisted ankle.. all parts of my normal EDS, I just tell them to shut up, and get along with my day as best as possible. Pain medication does almost absolutely nothing for me. I find it annoying to get ten minutes to an hour of relief and have it come back. I find it 'easier' to raise the mental wall and use my own body's defense mechanisms, because they last longer, and in the moment, I'm me - I can't rely on anything outside of myself, because then what happens when it isn't there? If I can deal ...